Welcome to my thoughts...I thank you

I sometimes view myself as a simple kind of guy trying to live a decent life stuck in the mid-west part of America. Well, that was some 16+ years ago. The longer that my legs walk me on this earth, the more complex (and slightly crazy) I find myself to be. The most realistic grip that I currently have in this existance is the knowledge that there is something greater than all of life, something that is larger, stronger, wiser and more loving than I could ever know...but I am trying. God has saved me and opened my eyes to true understanding of why I am here but now it has rocked my world!

I grew up trying to keep my hands tightly around my parents shirt tales as they moved around from town to town, state to state fervently striving to catch the all elusive dollar. My Father changed jobs like I change, well, you get the picture. I did not much enjoy this time in my life due to the inability to make and keep friends. Just about the time we (brother, sister, and I)would think we were going to be there for good, yeah you got it, we up and moved again. From Missouri to Kansas, Kansas to Missouri, Missouri to Illinois, Illinois to Missouri, Missouri to Kentucky, Kentucky to Missouri, Missouri to Arkansas and then finally back to Missouri. Yes, it has created a deep down commitment issue with me. The one thing that went with me each way the road traveled was the ever whispering and stedfast hope/faith in God. (Thank you mother!)
I can still see parts of that "traveling child" within me mostly when I have the opportunity to meet new people, I am real good at meeting people. Past that though I have struggled, even with the help of God, to reel in a true friendship or any kind of relationship for that matter with the people I deal with in my everyday life. My God has given me someone, my wonderful wife, to be the bestest friend (next to Him) and our relation goes deep and for that I owe him unspeakable thanks, but for others to share in my life I find it sometimes hard to go more than skindeep with my feeling or opinions or whatever. That is where the planets were aligned.
You have heard it said that God works in mysterious ways and now I see his reasoning for landing me finally in this wonderful state: Missouri. The weather is bearable most of the time, the people are genuinely friendly and even helpful I have found but years ago when my Father finally settled in this region I was angry. We had spent quite a few years in the home before a state below and actually had a chance at true friends, good times and stability. A life so to speak, but then he wild-haired again and we set back on our way back here without even a goodbye to my very best friends. Again, I say I was angry. I pulled into my shell and went anti-social towards anyone. Of course all things come and go and when I felt secure in our settings once again I began to mingle and found some common ground along the way with a person or two enough to call them friends one again. I am babbling now, back to the reason...I know now the reason that I experienced all of the different feelings of abandonment, resentment and rebelling towards my family and everyone that knew me along the way. To grow me into a more Christlike individual. I know, I know I mentioned the planets aligning, but I will get into that....
I know that I am not special, I know that there are others out there that have experienced more heartaches, more tragic circumstances or just more than I have in my 34 years of life. But this is just a place to write it out and share me with whoever wants to read of me. I am going to briefly (or try anyway) write of my life trials and shortcomings but also, everytime, show how God has helped me through.

Thanks for your time...